Hear No Evil : Loud White Noise
As much as I have opinions and questions, I tend to stay quiet. I find comfort in silence. I listen and keep comments to myself unless it’s a matter that needs to be spoken up and when it is, I will engage with affection. I believe words I speak carry great responsibility. I dislike intense moments, but it always exists and I don’t ignore them out of personal comfort. As much as I like serenity, I have difficulty ignoring my duty to even things out. I get irritated with gibberish speeches and prefer not to engage in egocentric encounters and conversations, but they constantly make their noises. I will be straight and on point when things need to be paid attention to or need to be resolved. If they can’t follow or refuse to come along, I will do what I can on my own. I tend to be impatient with laziness and excuses. I am not very good at waiting on others after generous time and understanding is given.
My generosity has been taken advantage of and my hopes have been crushed, my understanding abused, and my patiences overlooked, and reality gives you no mercy. Lies and lures disguised under empathy and care have spread seamlessly into people’s minds. It burned me and taught me how important it is to be in control of myself to deal with emotional terror of white noise from spiked souls. I do not need a second degree pain from my unpreparedness to unpredictable set backs and attacks.
Whispers of whining and obvious nonsense has become ‘rights’ for many today and it is seems like it has made us more fragile than ever. The misleading ‘rights’ have made it is easier to abandon hard work and made us weak. It has also closed our minds to see the strength we are capable of achieving. The wrong whispers are penetrating our minds and creating unbearable fear, forcing our generation to surrender to mythical world where the wrong is sugar coated with false promise of better and easier life.
When your life is beaten up in however way, future can seem daunting. You believe without belief because things become impossible to understand, all twisted and turned. Healing and mending does not always come with warmth. It is important to take actions and make decisions for common benefit and ease, even if it is a personal problem. If healing and mending become too personal, it will be hard to end the pain. Often times, personal pain comes away from yourself. Why would anyone want to harm oneself? In most cases, it’s the outside factors that leads to personal problems. It is a way to weaken you so they can feed you their white lies. If you allow, common affairs will eventual turn into personal issues once it gets processed left and right. Contrary to this, you can take personal goodness, extend the energy, and try to silence today’s white noise. Bomb it with truth.
The loud white noise in this world is sucking up so much energy out of me and forcing me to leave my serene state of mind. Simply driving me crazy. My world in my head in my private time is like anechoic chamber, or sometimes, like Chaplin’s silent movies, fully alive and quietly impactful. The world has surely become a place where sanity becomes an unsound state to be in. Where silence is feared and destroyed. The power thirst people would not allow us to be in our own heads and breathe freedom. They won’t even let us deal with our ordeals our own way. In the name of healing and making all things better, we find ourselves in more trouble, in more pain and in more chaos. We can’t even fix ourselves by ourselves because it has made it harder to trace back where we went wrong.
The tree of modern world has grown too many branches too fast to even understand what is going on or what is growing up. We’re just screwed up, aren't we? We can’t undo what has already happened, but perhaps we can detect sneaky white noises before we unknowingly surrender to it and live out our virtue and stop further ruin.