When Already Broken

When you are already broken, are you truly immune to further ruin? Can a broken heart mend and be broken again or once broken, broken heart never really truly recovers? Does it mean there is no repeat of ‘first time’, just another layer to already broken heart? Is this less painful? Nothing is sadder, no situation is lonelier, nothing is mendable, and feelings are numb for broken-in hearts, but second time still hurts. Again, it still hurts. Yes, you still feel it with broken heart just less unsettling. You think you’re fucked up and you live on until somebody dares to ask if I would like to hear Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata or Vivaldi’s Spring. Moonlight sonata can’t break me again and Spring can’t rebirth me. I will hear both, one for reminder and the other for present. When it’s already broken, it doesn’t matter if it’s sunrise or sunset, the sun will rise and it will set on its own and, it will be beautiful both ways and I will be me. Beautifully broken may be beauty on its own, strong and resilient yet still parts fragile and scarred. Realize it, accept it, and be fine with it. There is no other choice.